I pray for you -sugar version-

I've always wanted the best for you
Even while at my worst
I selflessly fell apart
While I put you first

Never once have I been selfish
Even if it's for something I need
I bent over backwards
And begged on my knees

She will ruin us, I know
From the way it's going I'm sure
She damaged us before
Cutting her out is the cure

Like an appendix in your gut
Ready to explode
She'll carve us out from the inside
And our bond will erode

Like dust in the winds
I've cast my wishes
But I'm like a moth in a pond
Waiting for the fishes

To swallow me whole
Or tear off my wings
No matter how hard I beat them
This is just one of those things

I have given up
And let put me down
As I smile on the outside
I carve myself a frown

In my heart it pulses
Bleeding rivers of red
I tried to tell myself "it's good"
Against the conscience in my head

You didn't listen to my words
Sharing what was only meant for me
Blinded by your love
But now I am glad I can see

Even if the truth is painful
Running me aground
I'll take it head on
With this new strength I have found

It's about time I wanted the best for me
Even while at my worst
I will no longer selflessly fall apart
And I put myself first

I wish I saw it sooner
So I didn't have to waist my time
Putting my head in my hands
Kneeling at my bed side

Even as hell swallowed me whole
And fire burned me through
I want you to know, I still put my hands together
And I prayed for you...